L.O.V.E is B.L.I.N.D

Dunno what went wrong lately. My heart always felt as heavy as like I'm carrying a huge load within it. Maybe I'm too tired of missing someone that I know I should not think too much... Last time I used to listen to my close friends that they fall in love with someone that they don't even know. OMG! Don't u feel weird when u fall in love with someone when u don't even know his name (or maybe we can signified as 'stranger')? For me, I felt that this is totally out of mind n it is BULLSHIT! How can someone fall in love with stranger that they never talk to? How come this feeling can be consider as 'L.O.V.E'? I think this is only can be describe as 'admire' BUT....absolutely not L.O.V.E ! For me, it is impossible to said that u love someone either bcoz of appearance or personality. Indeed, u fall in love bcoz u like everything about him eventhough he is not perfect in other's opinions. Just like I like him without any reason, I just like him bcoz my feeling tell me, ''Come on Kym, he is the one..''. The most I admire about him is his confidence. He is not pretending or hiding himself infront of everyone. I'm always wondering, why he can be so honest n full of confidence for whom he is.. Honestly, I can't do it coz I'm always hiding my true-self infront of others especially him. I can't be natural n always lack of confidence infront of him as I always want to keep the best image so that he will notice me. I always wish that he can understand me more n pay more attention on me. I'm not greedy, I just wish that I can always be there when he need me. At first, I thought that I don't actually care if he like me or not n it is not important also whether to let him know my feeling coz I just want to c him smiling n stay happy everyday..that's all, it is already enough. However, I found that lately I really cannot lie to myself anymore..how can I lie to myself that I don't mind at all though he don't care about my feeling.. So, I ask myself, ''Do I really don't care about anything as long as he is happy n all I want is just to see him smile?'' Perhaps NO n maybe I need to admit that I'm quite greedy.. It is hurt when u get to know that u r not the reason behind of his happiness and that one sweet smile. Can u imagine how hurt it can be? Though it can be hurt but, sometimes u will still continue to love him or her coz there r sweetness n bitter in every relationship. So, no one can ever judge what love really is.. Maybe this is the reason why we called L.O.V.E as B.L.I.N.D coz when u love someone, u won't mind to sacrifice~

Working = Tasting Sweetness in Bitter Life

A few days din't come up to my blog n write stupid things already..haha.. Lately so busy working n working n working. My life seems like a little boring + lonely. NO Facebook, NO msn & NO shopping! Since I'm still new with my job function n area, I've a lot to learn n this is really made me headache! Without entertainment, life will be totally sucksss as it is only between black n white..either one of the colour also will made me MAD..(yea,crazy!!) The most I hate was the working area since it is always pack with million tons of people. The people there have totally different character as well as personality. At first, I found that I could barely survive for a such environment. However, problem always turn-out to be fading away in a period of time. Now, I'm quite happy with my working environment and some of the collegue as well. Though there are still some fussy n lousy collegue that really made me 'vomit' once I c their damn stupid selfish face..(cool down..cool down..). Just wish that one day is better than another n I will be very grateful...(alleluyah!) hehe...

Many people said that working can be very stressful n I'm quite agree with that statement BUT...not 100% agree. As for me, work can also be one kind of way in enjoying the adult-life. When we grow up, we need to go out n meet variety type of person in the society so that we can learn from mistakes n become more mature. The most important is we learn that to earn $ is not that easy. Before we go to work in the society, we always ask $ from parents n most of the time parents will said, ''NO!!!''(coming out slowly n slowly from the mouth) can u imagine it? OMG! Most of the time we blame parents like, ''My parents don't sayang me la..'' or ''My parents are stingy la..'' n bla..bla..bla.. Indeed, we never know that it is really hard to earn $ in this complicated n full of strategy corporate world. Like me, though working in Casino Marketing Department is really tough n stressful but, it can be some kind of challenge for me too. So, actually it is a sweet experience in bitter lifestyle. I hate it but, I love it too..(sounds ridiculous rite?) But,this is what I am undergoing currently..

Miserable Day

Today was an absolutely tired n hectic day! I have been sitting in the HRD Theater from 9am till 5pm listening for 3 long speech delivered by 3 HR main incharged executive. One of the speaker is amazingly boring n it cause me kept yawning n yawning..;p It is quite scary when I have a look at my wrist watch that every 1 minute is ticking-off slowly (tick-tock,tick-tock) like 1 hour..Huh,can u imagine how boring it was?! I really have no idea how I can managed to stand for this 8 boring hours. When the session came to an end, Im too happy till almost jump up of the seat cushion. I thought that it was the end..but, who know that it was just the beginning of my NIGHTMARE!! Guess what? The HR executive tell me that I need to follow him back to HRD to capture a new photo for my ID as the previous one cannot be used. OMG! That's mean everyone can go back for a nice bath n sleep as well but, I can't..WTH! In the end, I only can go back at 6.30pm..I will like to emphasized the time once more, is "6.30pm"! (I wait for 1 n a half hour for that stupid piece of ID card).. Im glad that it is over n the only conclusion can be draw for today is....''miserable''....

Mission Impossible Life of Kymie

I'm totally busy like hell today packing all the stuff for the trip tomorrow. Now only I realized that I always do things at the last moment n this is really sucksss! Everytime I swear n promise that I won't do things at the last minute anymore but, each time also I did the same things repeatedly. I guess this is my life n I'm totally used of this lifestyle though I HATE it! I supposed to pack my things since last week but, I keep wasting all my time doing nothing. Don't ask me what I'm busy with until I keep delaying all the important things. Well, actually I sleep like a pig for 12 hours a day. Then, I chatting nonsense at 'mamak stall' from 10pm until dawn with my 'dog & pig' friends (haha..this is what we called in cantonese language). OMG! My life is totally ridiculous! I must STOP this crappy lifestlye! So, what I really need to do is working instead of wasting time sitting at home waiting for 'Mission Impossible IV'. So, I've planned to work while waiting for next year intake of degree studies. Hmmm...well I'm not yet decided what course I should persue (sigh). See? I'm out of direction. I don't really care what I wanna persue as long as I can graduate with that one piece of certificate so that when I walk-out I can said, ''So what? I'm a degree graduate student la..''. I said I wanna change my lifestyle but, I'm still wasting my time now sitting infront my laptop n writting stupid things in my blog..haiz..probably this is me!

It Is Just the Beginning

Realizing that many of my close friends said that I am always full of mysterious and hence I've made a decision to start blogging so that my dear friends can know more about my current progress. Well, sometimes I admit that I seldom share my feelings and opinions as I don't believe any other person around me eventhough my soulmate. I hate the feeling of being unsecured and I am totally afraid of being betrayed. I don't wanna lose any of my precious friends so, sometimes I choose not to share anything with anyone. This might be the way I choose to protect myself from being hurt by anyone else. Anyhow, lately I've set up my mind bcoz of the concept ''give & take'' that I've learned from my best friend. According to her, what u've give away will return to you in the end. Hence, I believed that if I used my heart n treat everyone equally n fair, I will get back a true heart in return and vice versa. At last, I understand that nobody in this world can live on their own without depending on another human being namely ''friends''. I truely appreciate every single of my friends that have once walk into my life and be my friends. Most of the time I've found myself to be lucky coz ''I AM NOT ALONE''!